Our week of trial

So on Sunday, I started to have the signs of loosing the baby. I was 7 weeks along. Lily and I stayed home from church but Dave took the other 3 for a late service. We had told the kids before they left so they wouldn't keep telling everyone that our family was going to have another baby. All morning there was talk from them about our family of 7 or Mia patting my tummy and talking to the baby. We didn't want them to go on all day. It was making it so hard for me emotionally. Ethan took it really hard. He cried hard and so did I. We talked and shared and hugged. The other two it didn't really hit until Monday when I was so sick and in pain that they realized more of what was happening. We always have worship music on Sunday mornings to prepare our hearts to worship at service and the music that was on was hitting me hard. I am Falling On My Knees was one song that really struck me. Which I was doing all morning on Sunday. Falling on my knees before the Lord asking for strength. And then the one song that was with me when we lost the other baby, He gives and Takes Away, was being sung again. I know that this was all part of His perfect plan it is just so hard for our eyes to see why and how this could be perfect. It's amazing to see how this baby was already such a BIG part of our family. We loved it, yet we hadn't even see it yet. I am doing really well. We just had one hard day which I just lied on the couch and watched movies with the kids, read and slept. Ethan was a huge help with Lily and I. The kids took charge of meals and snacks which they did a great job on.

So we are at the end of the week and we are all doing much better. The kids are still sad at times and I still cry when something hits me just right, but God did give me a peace about all of this and the strength to get through this trial. With a supportive, loving husband and family and close friends I am getting through this time with lots of prayer and encouragement.

Blessed be Your name In the land that is plentiful Where your streams of abundance flow Blessed be Your name And blessed be Your name When I'm found in the desert place Though I walk through the wilderness Blessed be Your name Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise When the darkness closes in, Lord Still I will say Blessed be the name of the Lord Blessed be Your name Blessed be the name of the Lord Blessed be Your glorious name And blessed be Your name When the sun's shining down on me When the world's 'all as it should be' Blessed be Your name And blessed be Your name On the road marked with suffering Though there's pain in the offering Blessed be Your name You give and take away You give and take away My heart will choose to say Lord blessed be Your name I will bless Your name, Lord Oh, You give and take away You give and take away But my heart will choose to say (oh Lord!) Blessed be Your name You give and take away You give and take away But my heart will choose to say (oh Lord!) Blessed be Your name